My week journal about Gratitude!

In this journal, I will talk about two moments that happened during my week and which I’m grateful about them. First, I will start about the most important one. At the end of the last week, I passed through a very difficult time in my personal life and it ended by a breakup. The first days, it was very difficult for me, but I have very good friends and it helped me a lot. Indeed, in the beginning of that tough period, my friends were there to give their support and they cared about me. They took time to do activities with me and some of them even made changes in their schedule to pass some time with me. This helps me to think about something else for a while and to see what happened to me in a more positive way. Even if ending a relationship is a negative and difficult experience, there are always possibility to see some things in a more positive way in that situation. So, this event made me feel grateful about my friends and I feel lucky to have them. Also, I can say that this event made our relationships stronger. Also, my best friend help me a lot to learn about this experience and to grow up. Now, thanks to him and our conversations, I know better myself and this gives me motivation to do some positive changes in my life. Those changes could be directly in my personal life or in my way of thinking. Brief, I proud of me here because I can feel grateful about some points in a difficult moment.

Also, this week, when I was reading about gratitude and positive change, I realize that I can feel grateful about myself. Let me explain with more detail. Last fall, I did a severe depression and it was the most terrible part of my life. I was obligated to stop my studies in another country, to stop school, to go back home and to take care of myself. It was difficult and I think that you can’t really imagine how it is if you don’t pass through a depression before. At 23 years old, this disease was like a bomb in my life and I was devastated. It took me weeks to accept it and months to finally feel a little bit of motivation again. But this week, with all the things happened in my life, I realized that I’m proud of me and I’m stronger than before. But I also realized that if I can feel like that now, it’s because I let me make important positive changes in my life and I’m so grateful about me to have do that. So, it’s how I realized that the gratefulness it’s not always about other people in our life. You can be grateful about yourself. I know that I felt this kind of gratitude before, but I didn’t notice it and I think this feeling was related to the happy moments happened in my life. Indeed, each time I was happy in my depression, I was grateful to still continue to fight. It’s brought me motivation to continue, to have good moments and to be happier in my life in general. It motivates me to make other positive changes and it helps me to drive these changes. 

Patrick St-Pierre